Lyds, freshly 20, Cambridge. I'm a mess when drunk (which is kind of often), and I regularly second guess everything when I have the time to.
"Some girls are bigger than others, some girls are bigger than others, some girl's mothers are bigger than other girl's mothers."
In precisely three days I have to say goodbye to another room that I’ve had in Brunswick. I have to say goodbye to living with so many of my closest friends who have been with me in this place for two years. I think of all the nights I spent crying and searching for the answers to life, or whatever was going to happen in the near and distant future. The fact I’m staying has made me realise that this place is perfect for me. It’s given me everything I’ve ever needed. Confidence, socialisation, some of the closest friends I’ll ever had, love, lust fulfilment, security; and freedom. And as lonely as I will be at times next year, it’ll be good to spend time alone with the new me, it’ll be good for my degree. I know for a fact that there will be times when I’ll be unhealthier than I am when I’m with others, but there will definitely be times where I’ll be my healthiest.
I’m determined to make my last year just as good, maybe even better, than the two I’ve already spent here. I’ll have posters of everything I want in my room, flowers on my windowsill, lube on top of my bedside table, photos on my pinboard and the sun shining through my window.